While I have not garnered many new writing techniques from my creative writing class, I have undergone a tremendous amount of self-discovery. In this discovery of self, I have learned to find my “voice” as a writer (which I talked about last week on Atypical Musings). According to my writing instructor, a writer’s voice is “how you write when you don’t have time to be elegant”.
As such, it is apparent that I’m trying to make Backseat Writer something it was never intended to be—mundane. I stated earlier this year in my New Year’s resolutions for the site that I wanted to be more personal and maybe a little more opinionated. I realize that I am trying to make Backseat Writer some big publication that can compete with the likes of high level independent media websites. Not only is this goal unattainable (I am only one person), but it’s also not fun. I always tell myself that I will give up Backseat Writer when it stops being fun.
Well, it’s not fun anymore. So either I have to make it fun or give it up. Since I’m not giving up the site, I realized that my desire to be more honest in reviews comes from my writing voice. My voice is one of raw honesty and sensitivity. Therefore, instead of trying to elicit big name interviews, do a ton of book and CD reviews just to compete in the market, I’m going to do what I set out to do—be a voice in the world, and not just any voice, my voice.
There are things I’ve been afraid to post here. I wonder, “How would that look professionally? Can I post a silly video? Or talk about my struggles with mental illness? How does that affect the whole of Backseat Writer?” It’s become painfully obvious to me that an interview with an artist or a book review or anything I else I write comes out of the same voice, the same person, the same struggling beautiful mess. Why should I separate these voices? Perhaps it is my battles with depression that make my interviews better or book reviews deeper. I am not just half a person, but a whole person.
Therefore, I am going to attack Backseat Writer as a whole person using my full voice. Maybe it isn’t as professional, maybe it won’t land me that dream writing gig, but at least I’ll have fun. And that’s all I truly set out to do.