Hear My Heart

19 Oct

I hate cliches.  I especially hate them when I’m trying to communicate how I feel about a crappy situation. If someone says or does something unkind to me, I want you, my friend and confidante, to do what friends do–I want you to say you’ll beat the living daylights out of that offensive individual.   I want you to be on my side, even if I’m wrong.  I’ll come around and realize the folly in my logic (or lack thereof).

When I come to you, I want you to hear my heart.

I want you to notice the slight tremble in my voice, the fast pace with which I speak, and the sparkle of tears on my eyelids.  I don’t want to hear what I should do or how what happened does not matter because in this moment it matters a lot.  I’m not looking for advice; I’m looking for an ally.  You and me against this nasty world, right?

Sure, in the scheme of things this doesn’t really matter and it will pass.  Right now, it is consuming me; it is hurting me; it is draining me.  Part of letting it go is processing the pain with you; I want you to acknowledge my hurt, to identify with it, and to hear it as I speak.  Don’t dismiss it; don’t tell me that others feel that way; don’t tell me to think about something else.  If I could dismiss it, if I cared how others felt, if I could think about something else, don’t you think that I would?

I just want you to be sorry that I hurt and I want you to avenge my honor, even if it’s only in words.  Most of all, I want you to hear my heart, even if my words are folly.

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No Responses to “Hear My Heart”

  1. ishallbereleased October 19, 2008 at 11:12 PM #

    i hear you

  2. ishallbereleased October 19, 2008 at 11:12 PM #

    i hear you

  3. Lois October 20, 2008 at 1:20 PM #

    I hurt for your heart!

    come, let us run with scissors pointed toward said snarky being.

  4. Lois October 20, 2008 at 1:20 PM #

    I hurt for your heart!

    come, let us run with scissors pointed toward said snarky being.

  5. kat October 21, 2008 at 2:04 PM #

    i got here today via the entry “a desolate woman” on your backseat writer page. i think you’re an incredibly gifted writer and i’m so glad to have found you. this post really resonated with me today. thank you for being so open and fragile. ❤

  6. kat October 21, 2008 at 2:04 PM #

    i got here today via the entry “a desolate woman” on your backseat writer page. i think you’re an incredibly gifted writer and i’m so glad to have found you. this post really resonated with me today. thank you for being so open and fragile. ❤

  7. Amy October 21, 2008 at 3:43 PM #

    Thanks! This was sort of a general me against the world sort of feeling. As I was thinking about this entry, I was reminded of a song off Brandon Heath’s latest album (WHAT IF WE) called “Listen Up” about a guy who is just trying to “fix” his girlfriend instead of “listening” to her heart. I was like…ah, that’s so spot on. Score one for Brandon Heath!

  8. Amy October 21, 2008 at 3:43 PM #

    Thanks! This was sort of a general me against the world sort of feeling. As I was thinking about this entry, I was reminded of a song off Brandon Heath’s latest album (WHAT IF WE) called “Listen Up” about a guy who is just trying to “fix” his girlfriend instead of “listening” to her heart. I was like…ah, that’s so spot on. Score one for Brandon Heath!

  9. hmks October 21, 2008 at 6:13 PM #

    I am really glad I am not the only person that feels this way.

    Often times I am the friend my friends come to – I don’t get a chance to tell them that I am hurting too.

    I sense we may be the same in this…

    So therefore… I will tell you what my mother always says…

    “this too shall pass.”

    It always annoys me when she says it, but I think of it later and it helps… a little.

    I think it’s especially hard for us writer-types, artist-types – we express through the written word, but not always through our spoken word. I am glad you left this post today… it actually has helped me in some Heart Situations going on in my own life.

    I am so happy that we have connected…

    I HEART you! and please know that I do.

    ~Heiid

  10. hmks October 21, 2008 at 6:13 PM #

    I am really glad I am not the only person that feels this way.

    Often times I am the friend my friends come to – I don’t get a chance to tell them that I am hurting too.

    I sense we may be the same in this…

    So therefore… I will tell you what my mother always says…

    “this too shall pass.”

    It always annoys me when she says it, but I think of it later and it helps… a little.

    I think it’s especially hard for us writer-types, artist-types – we express through the written word, but not always through our spoken word. I am glad you left this post today… it actually has helped me in some Heart Situations going on in my own life.

    I am so happy that we have connected…

    I HEART you! and please know that I do.

    ~Heiid

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