A big thanks to my garden spade for starring in this picture…and also for getting stuck in my leg last summer causing a puncture wound.
I realize I just threw a link on here to Backseat Writer without really explaining the passion or the story behind the site. I know that some of you come here for that very reason–to read stories.
It was in the ashes of something else that Backseat Writer was born (as was the poem “Phoenix Ashes”). I have been strangely silent about the battles going on in my life lately, partially to process and partially to maintain a professional focus. At the same time, I realize that my blog is the place where I can be real, encourage others, and improve on my writing. If I am not doing those things, why blog at all?
After a few months of lagging passion and waning joy, I began to examine my life from all angles. I realized that I couldn’t keep up with the demands and pressures I had put upon myself–something had to give or I would fall apart. After prayerfully considering my options, I knew what had to be done, even though it seemed completely illogical. While I followed God’s leading, things didn’t turn out exactly as I had hoped or wished causing a time of deep emotional pain and recluse. Faithful confidantes and quiet times alone with God have been my escapes.
Through it all, God gave me a vision to do something new, to invest in my own skills, and try something out of my comfort zone. I told Him that I didn’t want to go it alone and I had other obligations. He told me that He would take care of everything and to follow Him. I obeyed. He took care of the “other obligations” by ripping them away from me and causing me to ask, “God, what are you doing? This is chaos! How can anything good come of this turmoil?” But He’s been urging me forward, though I question every step due to my own lack of faith.
Backseat Writer is a more professional version of my blog with articles on God (the Bible, Christian living, and so on), music (reviews and interviews, so close to my heart), counseling issues, culture (gotta put Hannah Montana in there somewhere), and the arts (photographic, visual arts, poetry). It’s a mixture of the things I love in a format where I can handle the volume and publishing. If something doesn’t get done, it’s my fault alone, which is a much easier burden to bear.
I’m trying to ignore the site statistics for now and just follow God through this scary new adventure. I humbly ask for your prayer and support as I do what God has called me to do. It’s never easy, and sometimes impractical, but it’s always worthwhile…in the end.